this sketch is very significant to me. see.. in my life i have three main goals or desires. the first and foremost is knowledge and understanding. for some reason i've always had an incredible thirst for understanding of EVERYTHING and knowledge of any sort. i just soak it up. im no genius, i don't get great grades and i don't have near a photographic memory. but still i just want knowledge. second is love. i've never felt complete and i've been looking for my girl, my dream girl for years now. i'm trying to find my angel. i honestly think we were lovers in a previous life and somehow got seperated and now i'm desperately trying to find her in each of my subsiquent reincarnations. i had a vision one night, i think in a dream maybe, of my angel sitting on a stool on a balcony at some party. she's by her herself, sitting with her right leg propped on the stool higher than her left, a beer in a cup in her left hand at her right side and a cigarette (maybe a joint, i couldnt really see from that angle) in the other. she was just looking around, taking a break from the social craziness for a few, radiating an aura of love like a signal for me. cuz i think she's trying to find me, too. oh yeah, and the third is monetary success, but that's only because it enables me to further pursue the first two and help more people. other than that, it's not really important to me at all.

she's so beautiful. she's my angel.