heh, i just got done ranting and raving about coorperation and my desire for liberation of my mind not... 20 seconds ago and i want to write again.  just as an update of sorts.  its been quite a while since i wrote in here.  not much has been going on, really.  only things are that ive discovered chain maille as a hobby to the fullest extent.  sheesh, ive become obsessed with getting this shirt done, lol.  i made mandrill so i can go through a hundred feet of wire in a half a day or so.  i dunno what it is about chain maille, but i love it.  its like legos of this age.  its been forever since something has fulfilled that lego spot in me, heh.  i should put some pictures in here of the things ive done.  or ..will do, lol.  i havent done much.  ive done two bracelets, two wallet chains and im almost done with the shirt (that has been a joint effort in which ive done most of the work).

another thing is my growing distance for amberley.  i dunno, after i learned she thinks im a pothead (the loser, plague of america kind.  not the funny, glad he's around kind), i just havent been as eager to spark up our old relationship.  i just keep feeling like theres this preconcieved (right word?) notion that ..theres something to be worked out.  i am FOR marijuana.  in any and all forms i AM an ADVOCATE for weed, lol.  amberley is NOT.  she is such a little d.a.r.e. child its scary.  im so surprised that she turned out to be such a dare kid.  well, maybe not entirely surprising..  just really really sad.  i did love her.  plus, if we were to get back together, i would not quit weed.  i wouldnt just stop it for her.  and she does NOT like it, lol.  so for us to be successfully together, id either have to convince her that weed is completely ok or i would have to quit completely.  neither of which seems to be very likely at all, heh.  so im just trying to keep my distance.  i feel terrible cuz she could make me happy... i thot.

SO!  the other recent development, the more promising one, is allison.  she's this incredibly hot lil chic.  she actually is 17 but she looks 15, haha.  i feel so wierd having a thing for her just cuz its hard to look at her and think she's old enough.  but she has a great mind, a tolerant attitude, shes just great.  plus, she smokes.  heh, we mesh a lot better, i think.  but i have yet to affirm anything, really.  we havent been on a date yet, but i asked her out tonight.  she couldnt, but she did ask for my number.  :)  i dunno, we'll see.  i just like that theres finally something on the horizon again.

but thats all for now.  tune in again.  same bat time, same bat channel.